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I am alone
Surrounded by friends
Talking
Laughing
And yet I am alone
Pretending to be something
I am not
Happy when I am crying
Intelligent when I am naïve
Do you even care?
Do you even notice?
I am alone
Surrounded by friends
Open like a well-read textbook
Some would say
Listing all the characteristics
Of a creature unknown to most
Each day is a trial and a test
The night before I fall asleep thinking
Maybe tomorrow will be different
The day ends with then again, maybe not
I sit and listen
Watching my friends having happy lives
Listening to their laughter and merriment
Listening to the sound sharp,
Cracking, piercing pieces of
My heart falling
Falling onto the ground
Trying to catch them but
They continue to fall
But nobody hears them
Or maybe somebody hears them
And they ignore it.
I am alone
I walk the world wondering
When is it going to get better
Believing everything is all right
When it is not
Trying to piece together a broken being
Trying to speak and yet
I am alone
Surrounded by friends who thought they knew me
Understood me
Do they know what it is like to be me?
Do they know what I feel everyday?
Or, better yet, do they know how alone I am?
Do you?
Or do you just see the mask?
I am good
I am a pretender, the best of liars
I live my days speaking of the happiness I feel
In the heart, crying out for what?
Understanding?
Comfort?
I want that
I taste it as if it was the sweetest ambrosia
I yearn it will all my being
And yet I am alone
Cursed to walk this world
Without knowing
Without feeling
Forever
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Contributed by:
Jannet Patterson
<Jannetp@swbell.net>
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